On the 20th of February 2013 I came out as transgender to everybody around me (Minus my family I do apologise). Four years ago my life changing in the most positive way imaginable.
I decided to open the largest door known to man, I became honest with myself and the world around me and I asked the whole world to perceive and accept me as Alex. Four years ago I was going through the worst mental health relapse that I have ever had, I was unhappy, depressed, suicidal and I was ready to give up on life. Coming out was one of the greatest things that chose to do, Four years ago I decided to save my own life, by being truly honest.
These last Four years have been heart breaking, emotional, draining, happy and truly inspiring. It feels like I have been through hell and back these last four years, being bullied / assaulted / denied acceptance / death threats and denied basic human rights has broken my heart, but I am thankful for all of the positive experiences I have had the pleasure to take part in.
I remember being this lost, lonely and isolated 15 year old, with no future plans simply because I didn’t think I would be around. I remember writing several suicide notes, I remember planning to not wake up the next day and I clearly remember hurting myself just to feel no emotions. When I came out, those feelings of needing to hurt myself faded away, wanting to push the button and end my life had evaporated and my sadness had been lifted into the cloud. Four years ago today I changed my whole life and I am so thankful.
Today, on the 20th of February 2017 I am happy, I am content and I am slowly becoming comfortable within my body, which is exciting as I start hormones in late may. I have made so many dreams become a reality, I have achieved so much in the last 4 years than I have in the last 14 years, I have met some fantastic new friends, I am making fantastic changes everyday and I am truly happy and comfortable with the life I am living.
I am in university studying something I love doing which is psychology and counselling, I am working with some amazing charities like Fixers UK & Pride Cymru, I am ambassador for Iwill & I am a Diana Award holder, which I never truly imagined.
I would like to say a massive Thank You to those who have stood by me, regardless of how long you have been in my life, whether you have been here for four years, or four days, I don’t care. Everybody in my life has supported in one way or another and if it wasn’t for those individuals, I wouldn’t be here doing the fantastic things that I’m truly doing.
So Thank you,